It has been several months since I’ve written. I can justify by saying that I had moved to a foreign country and was going through a difficult time (which is true), that the internet was frustrating here (oh, it is), that I had little motivation or inspiration to write (yup), or that I was unsure how to shift the focus of my blog once my life changed drastically in my move to Belize (working on it).
Regardless of those justifications, I want to start writing again; it is important for me to start writing again in this venue.
So, I am back. I have survived my first semester of working for a study abroad program in Belize. I have survived my first Christmas away from home- in 29 years. And I have survived some of the ups and downs of getting used to living in a new country (I have no doubt there are more to come).
I have often characteristically over-analyzed what I write on the blog, which I think has stopped me from writing as much as I should. I wanted to make sure that what I was writing connected to my audience- whoever that was.
One of my New Year’s resolutions was to stop with (or at least become more aware of) the “shoulds,” to lessen the high expectations I put on myself and others. Writing again is part of this resolution. Rather than always over-thinking what I am writing, how it fits into the subject of my blog, how other will interpret it, etc., etc., I will hopefully share more about what is going on with me, in me, around me. I will possibly even have some pictures, if I can actually get them to upload without crashing the campus internet. I want to process more of this phase in my life, what I am learning here, and perhaps, what it means.
And just maybe, it will shed light on life’s meaning for others as well.